Remember?

Called 經理 to 拜年 today. Free of charge. Because I was using someone's brother's private line (which I still don't understand what it is) to make the international call.

經理 is taking a break now after a busy year. I will need his help again later this month...


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Ate a lot of undesirable food today. The taste of the snack from my brother (手信) was so good. Questions: Why can people reduce 30 lbs so easily? Why is it so difficult for me to reduce 3 lbs?
Answer: 2 of the 7 deadly sins: gluttony and sloth.


delicious snack

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祝大家今年「出入平安」!

Very busy the whole day for the final preparation of Chinese New Year.

Suddenly remembered an interesting 謎語: 妓女年結...

後記: Just received a call from 李香蘭 at around 8:30pm. She was happily playing fireworks at home. She called me to share with me her joy. I could feel the young woman's passion. Very touching.


fireworks

團年飯, 好多餸 。

今天上 磅，發現沒有再輕到。 擔心!

So many people in the Mongkok Flower Market. I spent almost 3 hrs there buying various kinds of flowers. However, no my favorite sunflower this year. When I returned home, it was already after mid-night. I was just about to shut down.

sunflower

硬漢 always accuses me of being only interested in sex and urges me to develop some other interest. Recently I felt quite interested in precious metal. Today I looked up the periodic table in the web and had the following findings.

http://www.ssco.com.tw/Technical_info/periodic_table.htm

(1) The periodic table does not look quite the same as the one I studied in secondary school. Probably the one I learnt is a simplified one. Or new elements found since then?
(2) Rare metal does not equal precious metal.
(3) 元素週期表比資產負債表有趣。

Even with my limited resources, I still want to buy a small quantity of palladium and platinum...

Today exchanged a lot of new notes for red pocket money. Banknotes are so beautiful.


notes

Had a massage today. The last time I went to this sauna place was on 15 Sep 2000.

Lost $20.0. Current account balance = -$533.5

Food temptation was difficult to resist.


roast pig


scallop


Won $12.5. Current account balance = -$513.5

最近發現心理同身理都發生了變化, 今日更眼前一黑, 難道這就是練天蠶變需要進入的假死狀態?

今天又發覺輕了一 磅。

Today is 大寒. 有雨 but not very cold. Someone and I went to have a big dinner to celebrate. Celebration is an important part in life. Yet I may have eaten a lot this evening...

Finally received a call from her.


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她走了。 我會很想她...
硬漢說我只是貪圖她的胴體, 但我說:一字記之若緣。
緣來緣去, 緣起緣滅, 就讓一切隨風 ...

「施主, 你一生食過最好味的是什麼? 」
「叉燒飯。」

我要食黯然銷魂叉燒飯!

BBQ pork rice

今天上磅, 發覺輕了一 磅!!

Left the office at 10:00pm.

Had Caesar Salad with Grilled Chicken as lunch. Cost me $120. Strange. Simple healthy food is not cheap at all.


salad

我要食 $20 肥叉飯!

Lost $14.4. Current account balance = -$526.0

Had dimsum lunch with my family today. I didn't touch 80% of the dimsum because they are high-calorie. Spent most of time just watching my family members eating. 好辛苦!

Lost $17.5. Current account balance = -511.6

Why did I choose to forget my school days? Because I was unhappy during that period. To be happy is never easy. I haven't got much happy time in my life, though I can recall I had been quite happy in 1988, 1990, 1992, 1997, 1998, 2000 and 2001. I hope from hindsight in the future, 2006 will also go into the list.

Maybe I will later elaborate more on what happened in those years.

知我者,謂我心憂;不知我者,謂我何求...

PS: Dreamed of C last night. Similar dreams keep on repeating themselves... 宿舍、女子、探訪、溫存、承諾、重逢...

I got a link today to view the photos taken in the nth anniversary dinner of my secondary school. Initially I wanted to post some of them in my blog. But 硬漢 persuaded me not to do so or to post only after editing, for fear of my (our?) identities being revealed. At last I chose not to post the photos at all.

I didn't go to party because my name is in the hall of shame. I don't know why 硬漢 didn't go. Because his name should be in the hall of fame.

I have got no special feeling after looking at the old faces. Maybe I don't want to remember anything in my school days. 待續...

The 5th mirror. How much I long to have fun with 李香蘭 under it!

5th mirror

Met 李香蘭 yesterday. Surprisingly, there were very few people crossing the border. Was it because yesterday was a weekday? Or was it due to the cool weather?

In our precious private time, I reiterated my proposal for her future career. I suggested her to learn language, dancing, cooking food, making coffee or anything. Again no response from her. I worry about her very much.


moments of intimacy

In order to give her financial support, I think I have to put aside some of my plans. For example, the plan to be a 大爺 in Australia will be postponed indefinitely.

big spender

Moreover, as 硬漢 is not joining us, I don't think she and I will go for a trip next month.

I went to measure my weight again this evening. To my disappointment, the reading was exactly the same as before. So, all my efforts in the last couple of weeks are only enought to keep my weight unchanged! Looks like I have to go for a more rigorous weight reduction plan...

The headline of Oriental Daily today is "股民身家暴漲"。
After returing from a luxurious trip to Huahin/Bangkok, 老馮 bought a new toy. It was a PDA phone, worth $6,xxx. I bet he has made a lot of money from stock lately. In a way, he is similar to 硬漢 who also loves IT products. I must admit that I am not keen on technology. I am very primitive.


pda phone

Missed P very much. Gave her a call and told her so. I thnik I will meet her one more time before she goes...

攝氏8度也難擋心中慾火。 但為了兩姊妹，唯有打消一切念頭 ...

Had lunch with 硬漢 and 老馮 today. We talked about a lot of things. But the topics upset me very much from the hindsight.

Years ago, we talked about passing exams, going to universities, finding jobs and dating girls. Now, our topics include deteriorating health, impotence, premature ejaculation, infidelity, unemployment and forced retirement, etc. All of us are really facing middle age crisis. Sad!


一碌廢柴

後記: Want to spend more time studying the two guys. For example, I don't understand why 老馮 seems to have his brain washed by his employing firm.

最近讀了一個很有趣的「蜘蛛的故事 」

以下是來自於一個「東邪西毒」的討論區:

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我不能用常人的心態來揣度精神式的戀愛，如果從愛產生的生理机制上說，剔除欲望的因素似乎是很困難的。因為“愛”与“性”仿佛也有某种微妙的關系，性与身體是密不可分的，所以性是愛的基礎之一。沒有性的“愛”似乎是不可想象的，盡管有時候這种性愛的意念處在潛在的狀態，但不能“缺失”。正如片子里，在奇妙的光与影的變換下，慕容嫣撫摸歐陽峰，無論是撫摸者，還是被撫摸者，他們都幻想著彼此是最喜歡的人，盡管有點“同床异夢”的感覺，但是那种對心愛的人的渴求卻不自禁地消融在關于“性”的虛幻里。臨行前的盲劍客，竟不顧一切近似強暴地親吻那位看起來像他妻子的孝女，似乎這是他臨死前最后的唯一奢求，久久地壓抑的愛在那一刻被不可控制的力量占据，這是欲望的力量。其實，我們上面所說的“得不到”的愛，以及面對時間的折磨和焦灼，又有多少是因為我們潛藏在內心深處的那份欲望在作怪呢？由此我想到了另一部電影基耶斯洛夫斯基的《白色》，卡洛因為失去了性能力，而他的妻子以此為理由上訴法院要求离婚。盡管卡洛一再聲言很愛她，她只提出一個簡單的要求：請出示性能。我不知道情愛在多大程度上是靠這份“性能力”來維持的，但似乎沒有了它，我們的無比珍視的這份情愛也會變得無比的脆弱和不堪一擊。
“性愛”從某种角度上說就是“自身需要他人的身體”的一种現象，但是它不同于動物的先天性條件反射，或者說我們不能過分地強調“身體”對愛的意義，盡管外在的身體也是成就愛的條件，有時甚至會超過精神的契合，因為愛本身更多地還受文化積淀的影響。正如對于進入愛情狀態的人們，“愛”具體體現在總是渴望想見到對方，想与她說話，說了話以后又想触摸其手，想和她接吻或者擁抱真是欲望無止境呀！可見在達到最后的完美結合之前，需要一個錯綜复雜且較長的過程，也就是所說的“戀愛”。顯然，戀愛盡管也受欲望的推動，但精神的交流更是不可或缺的，純粹的身體欲求和單純的精神需要，在我看來都不是正常的愛的理念。
對于“愛”，無論怎么修飾或將其精神化，歸根結蒂它的本質在于欲求他人身體的一种自身沖動，而且人本身可能并不理解為什么這种沖動會來到自己這里。這似乎是人類本身就具備的，并升華到精神境界的一种感覺，是無法控制的。在愛的過程中人們對身體的沖動加以否定、反抗或者不予理睬，使其被克制并控制成一定的形態。實際上，這种選擇、加工、變形的過程，就形成了“愛”。
如果這樣分析的話，似乎精神的戀愛和“得不到”的愛都是不正常的愛，因為它們沒有性的基礎。顯然這樣的理解功利性太強了。如果把性墮落成“肉欲”，不僅是對性本身的侮辱，也玷污了愛的圣洁。我只是說性是進行愛的最根本的驅動力之一，性的結果在我看來并不能构成愛的价值的判斷。其實，我非常尊重那些進行精神式的戀愛的人們，因為他們仿佛可以超脫現實的“沉重的肉體”的束縛，在另一個層面上實現愛的价值。但是這种愛究竟是不是情愛，還是包含著過多的友愛和關愛的成分，正如好朋友也能如同戀人一樣在精神上和你有著親密的關系，但是朋友畢竟不是戀人，原因是很明顯的。所以說，如果把精神的戀愛和我們通常所說的情愛看成一樣的，又似乎是不妥的。總之，愛可能是極其复雜的，絕非語言所能言說明白。
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Won $29.0. Current account balance = -$494.1

Dreamed of C again 2 days ago. I think I will never forget her.

“我知道，醉生夢死只不過是一個玩笑，你越是想知道自己是不是忘記的，反而記得越清楚。”
“人為什么會有煩惱，就是因為人的記性太好”
“當你不能夠再擁有，你唯一可以做的，就是令自己不要忘記。”


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Won $3.5. Current account balance = -$523.1

A lot of male audience had stopped watching women tennis since the emergence of the Williams sisters. Little change to the situation until the rise of Maria Sharapova. Now, Martina Hingis is coming back!

C and I loved this player very much. 年青、貌美、好波...
She reached top of the world at the age of 17. Chose to retire at the age of 22... I started working at the age of 23!


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Lost $42.3. Current account balance = -$526.6